I can't wait until airplanes have wi-fi... in the meantime, feel free to post stories that you like and want to discuss.
Twerp, My oldest daughter is also bi-polar.
Hang in there, we all love you !
Posted by: Rock Marine | Monday, April 28, 2008 at 07:56 AM
Ok, I'm alive. I made it through the hardest part of the dip after a manic episode. I'm still feeling some embarassment but it isn't as bad as Friday.
It's like I go from a really high "life is great, I can do whatever I want and things will be peachy" to super low "live sucks, I can't do anything to make it better."
I had just gotten back from the doctor's office on Friday and my doctor changed my meds (again). She thinks that all the stress I've been under with the new house and some other stuff may have triggered the manic episode. Now I'm more in depressive mode but not suicidal anymore. My weekend was laid back and I got to spend a lot of time with my family (which I needed). I'm just so sick of having to be on medication to make me normal.
I hate having manic episodes. That one that ended on Thursday night was the first in a long time and it was a bad one that lasted for about a month. I didn't go out partying or get drunk or anything like that but I said a lot of stuff that I shouldn't have and spent money on stupid stuff that I don't need. I hate manic episodes because once they are over, it's like the world is coming to an end. I have to keep telling myself that everything is fine, it's just my mind that's making everything seem to be in terrible shape.
I wouldn't wish bipolar illness on my worst enemies. It's one of the worst things to deal with--seriously.
Posted by: twerp | Monday, April 28, 2008 at 11:15 AM
twerp, people here and in real life love you. We are glad yer here today. (and other days too). I have been there and back a few times (more recently than I care to realize sometimes). If you see this, my real email is there with my name if you ever want to anonymously vent/chat with someone - do.
Posted by: steveO | Tuesday, April 29, 2008 at 05:44 PM
thanks. I added you to my yahoo contacts list.
Posted by: twerp | Wednesday, April 30, 2008 at 06:04 AM